The future

Who am I? Who will I be? What will I do? The future holds so many unanswered questions, and honestly thinking about it makes my head hurt. For the longest time, I’ve counted the years down before I would leave for college and now unsurprisingly it’s 0. But throughout the years I’ve seen growth and change. I’ve become more sensible, responsible, and aware of my actions. But as I see myself preparing to become an adult I aspire to be fearless, extroverted, and open to new things, but at the same time I’m scared of losing myself, my grounding, the rules, and the support I’ve had through home. I know I will always be the carefree person I am right now, but I hope to expand my perspective on life. I hope to become less stressed over my grades, find joy even when things are going bad, and create happiness for myself even when others can’t. 

And now that I will be going to college in a few months, the question of who I want to be has popped up more frequently. I want to mold myself into a mature person, a person who knows how to take control of difficult situations,  how to ground themselves, and how to put their best foot forward. All these things are easy to say but they take years to master. I want to take the opportunity of university to learn these skills and take leadership of myself. 

As I come of age, I hope to find the balance of life, and give back to the community that has always supported me while achieving my dreams. In 7 years I want to see myself with a medium to the obese-sized cat, living in an apartment with my roommates, while creating software for diagnostic procedures, doing photography, and volunteering. 

Mini Hibernation #5: I did not take a nap today and I’m exhausted 0/10